Starting Off Well

I've been told not to hope,
Lest I jinx my chances,
Like the universe don't like to be led,
When you and she dances,

I cannot say that I blame her for that,
It's her party ain't it?
Then again, the best parties I've been to,
Were open to a change to the event,

What is wrong with experimentation,
Trying to mold futures,
Surely there have been people with success,
That hopefully nudged her!

We live once, right?
So, my question is this:
Why do I feel better failing at hopes,
Than succeeding while I'm oblivious?

The Danger of New Lives

Ev'rything is changing,
But, can I change also?
A life I never thought that I could have,
Is one I'll never know,

There are people I never thought I'd meet,
Saying hello to me,
They may as well be saying gobbly goop,
For all I know what they honestly mean,

You know that guy you know you'd never trust,
Because you can see him,
Juxtaposed to what is all familiar,
To what has always been?

Well now I'm blind,
I can't let myself go,
In time I may learn how to navigate,
If I don't succumb to an unknown foe.

Making It Worthy

Let us get things started,
So much time on our hands,
Idleness makes a dang'rous companion,
When you do not have plans,

When there's nothing you would like doing more,
Than watch the next Picard,
Even if it gives important lessons,
You can apply when you are not so bored,

Thinking about all you could be doing,
In the time passing by,
That you will never get use again,
Before you, ahem, die.

That made me laugh,
I guess my work is done,
If I do nothing else again today,
This five minutes has been my redemption.

No Turning Back

Don't know what to tell you,
Thought you knew who I was,
We have spent so many years together,
We were barely an us,

Yet, apparently, I was incorrect,
Your perception of me,
Was someone I didn't know existed,
Within the bounds of our episteme,

Perhaps if you had said something before,
When the gap was less wide,
Twixt how you want me to be and who I'm,
Instead of having lied,

We'd still be friends,
That's what I thought we were,
I've been living in a world that's not there,
The real one's not one I wish to conjure

Feel Better

Speed isn't relative,
Success is in your mind,
If you need proof any of that is true,
Take a look at my life,

Forget that, try taking a look at yours,
Not too fast, or you'll fail,
You might have what ev'ryone thinks you want,

We know one only want what's not for sale, 

Ush'lly because we don't have the money, 

Time, brain, or confidence, 

The yellow brick road requires all of these, 

Run by A.I. agents,

You'll be alright,
The bible told me so,
Death of his kids, pain, and judgemental friends,
Was only god playing around with Job.

Knowing

Why's it any diff'rent,
Doing something at work,
When all of a sudden things fall in place,
During a phase you've shirked,

Compared to the time you showed up someplace,
When fate conspired magic?
Everyone called it coincidence,
In essence, such things are no different.

The trick is living as if they're the same,
Whether luck or spirits,
Choosing a path helps you to understand,
It doesn't matter which,

They're all the same,
But knowing that's wisdom,
Which you only learn through experience.
I'm sure I will one day learn this again.